Please step away from the Pepsi....
My name is Laura, and I live in Texas. I am 44, have been married for 23 years, and have a 20 year old son and a 17 year old daughter. We also have a zoo. We have 2 labradoodles (Moose is 6 yrs old and over 100 lbs and Maddie is 3 yrs old and about 50 pounds), a cat named Olivia, and frequent visits from Rigby, my son's 1 year old Boston Terrier/Australian Shepherd mix. In the past year I lost 60 pounds, and then somehow lost all my motivation.
posted by Laura at
5:05 PM So, I'm not a very good blogger. First of all, I'm not interesting or funny and no one would want to read it. Secondly, I'm too self-conscious to pretty much let anyone read it anyway. Third, I have no "follow through" so it never lasts long. I decided maybe starting a blog to talk through some stuff would be good, and was going to create a new one, and somehow remembered this old one. Wow. I decided to leave the few posts that were there for some background, and my entertainment value. In January 2013 I had surgery that required I not drink any Pepsi (or which I am a TOTAL ADDICT) for about a week. At the end of the week, I thought, well, I'm past the worst of it. Let's keep going. After losing a little weight, I decided to try and start eating better, too. Around May, I even ventured into a gym and joined, and hired a personal trainer. Things went really well for a few months, and I ended up losing almost 70 pounds. Then the wheels came off. My first trainer quit. My second trainer got fired. I tried doing it on my own, and then I tried working out with my 2nd trainer just at a gym, but that ended up being more his workouts than mine. I got discouraged and tired and various things, and gained a few pounds back. I'm now down about 60 pounds. For cardio I mostly rode the bike, but eventually tried walking in the park, and some jogging. I've done two 5K races. The first one I totally walked, and the second one I walked with intermittent jogging. I'm not a fan of jogging, and my knees are REALLY not a fan of it. I'll do good cardio for 3 or 4 days in a row, then do none while eating everything in sight for 3 or 4 days in a row. So, I just gain and lose the same 5 pounds over and over. I'm really wanting to get past this hump, and get to -75 pounds. I think that would really motivate me. My "big" goal is to get to 199 (which would be a loss of 87 pounds.) Everything from there would just be gravy. I'm a member of 24 Hour Fitness, use MyFitnessPal to track my calories, and have discovered River Legacy Park, where I really enjoy getting in my cardio. My friend Angie tries to motivate me, but even she must be thinking I'm hopeless at this point. LOL I've all but stopped seeing Spencer, my trainer, due to time/money/motivation issues. But I know I can do this. I need to take my meds (anti-depressants) and get back in the habit of exercising almost daily, and I know it will make a huge difference on my outlook. So, no promises, but I'll try! (great attitude, huh?? LOL)
posted by Laura at
10:02 AM I'm a fat cow (thus, the theme of the blog) and I'm sick of it.... Ugh. My name is Laura, and I live in Texas. I am 40, have been married for 18 years, and have a 16 year old son and a 13 year old daughter. I hope to lose 100+ pounds at some point. Oh, and I am a Pepsi-holic. This was the description at the top of the page about 4 years ago. Luckily, some of it is different now. :)
posted by Laura at
9:42 AM So. It's been 18 days since I last posted. And I'm the exact same weight. I found a lot of excuses to NOT exercise, and I haven't been back. I probably started drinking Pepsis again over the last few days. UGH!! Why did God create me with no willpower?!?!? (Yes, I blame Him. You didn't think I was going to blame ME did you?!?!?!) So. today I've had Propel, and I'm about to have Honey Nut Cheerios and lowfat milk. I brought my swim stuff and hopefully will make it to Aqua Fit tonight. Jeez Louise. I'm not an imbecile. I can do this... right? RIGHT?!?!?!
posted by Laura at
8:59 AM i have had NO pepsis for an entire week. i did have one real coke, and two sweet teas. diet coke doesn't do the trick as far as staving off a major withdrawal headache, because i think it is more than just caffeine. so i give myself a little sugar to help. but not a pepsi, because that will make me want eight more. so a week with no pepsi. eating better. not GREAT, but better. and i worked out FOUR times this week. three classes of water aerobics (one hour each), and one 30-minute power walk. AND I GAINED A FOOKING POUND!!!! wtf?? seriously??? how could i gain a pound??? grrrrrrrrrrrrr.
posted by Laura at
9:31 AM Got up this morning and went to Valley Ranch for a hockey game. Grabbed a grilled chicken sandwich and sweet tea on the way to Farmers Branch for another hockey game. Dinner was roasted chicken and corn and black eyed peas. And an English muffin. Took a 30 minute walk after dinner... pretty fast-paced... Glad I got in a little exercise although my knee seems to disagree. Interested to see what the scale shows tomorrow. I should be drinking more water!!!
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10:29 PM So.... actually got my butt up at 7:30 this morning for the 9:00am Aqua Fit class at LA Fitness. So, ummm, yeah. Didn't so much need to do my hair. LMAO It didn't seem THAT bad when doing it. But now it's 90 minutes since it ended and OWIE!!! That water resistance is sneaky!! Breakfast was Chick Fil A. I got a large fruit cup and a diet lemonade. I'll get some cereal or something in a bit. Wheeeee. Update: Trying to remember what all I ate. Zesty Italian Crescent Casserole and corn for dinner. Didn't eat all that much, but didn't have enough water either. Mostly moped around being sore. :)
posted by Laura at
11:22 AM Okay, it's only 11:00am, and already I'm whining. Only having about 4 hours of sleep last night, combined with no Pepsi, is making me very cranky!!! On the way in to work I drank some water, but not as much as I intended to, and once I got here I had a granola bar with low-fat milk. Need to go get some water and take my vitamins or something. Will try to avoid the 25 cent Pepsis while I'm in the kitchen. sigh.... I got some kind of "women's ulta mega vitapak" thing from GNC. There are 7 ginormous horse pills in each day's packet. I hope I can even get that down, or that it does something for me once I do. :) Have been talking to my friend Jessica. She goes to LA Fitness, and is in the Aqua Fit class, and she's willing to help me get started. Woo hoo!!! :) UPDATE: Morning was 2 granola bars and low fat milk. Lunch was Treebeards. Got pot roast, mashed potatoes, and red beans and rice. Only ate half of it, but did have a cookie. Dinner was half of a sub sandwich I had leftover. I had one Coke all day.(not nearly as appealing as Pepsi but helps with headaches) Did pretty good with the water, and one Coke Zero. Woo hoo!
posted by Laura at
11:00 AM It has come to my attention that perhaps I am a big fat (pardon the pun) whiner with no self-control, no self-esteem, etc. That I talk and talk about what I'm going to do to lose weight, and to improve myself and my life, and then I never get around to actually DOING it. Well, I might do it for a week or two.... but it doesn't stick. And after 15+ years of being overweight.... and now being at my highest weight ever (ugh).... After trying every diet on the planet, including Medifast, Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers, Atkins, diet pills, you name it.... It is time for me to get serious and lose this weight, both so I look better and feel better. I'm 40, and up until now my health has been pretty good, but I know as I get older that won't be the case. Not to mention, I get tired just hauling my fat ass from the parking garage into my office.... So, it's time for me to get off my ass, make some time for ME, and get myself on the right track. I am a Pepsi-holic. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my Pepsi. I am so in love with the combination of sugar and caffeine that is in Pepsi, that my whole body, especially my HEAD, is going to be in SERIOUS protest about this lack of Pepsi I will be getting. I'd like to allow myself an occasional Pepsi, but "occasional" seems to turn into "8 a day." I need to drag my ass to the gym. Cameron and I joined LA Fitness yesterday. I was watching the Aqua Fit (water aerobics) class, and that looks interesting. I've got a screwed up knee so I can't do much just yet. Cameron wants to lift weights more often than he gets to at hockey practice and he thinks if he goes that will help me to go and do what I need to. Just need to do it. ;) Oh yeah, a little bit about me. I've been married for 18 years, I've got a 16 year old son and a 13 year old daughter, and we live in Texas with our two dogs (a poodle named Toby and a labradoodle named Moose.) I used to teach school, but now I work as a corporate paralegal. Here is a "before" picture that my daughter so rudely took awhile back. Clearly, I'm not THIS fat. It's just that she's standing beneath me and taking it from a really bad angle. I took the other picture the same day with my camera phone from the "correct" angle and my ass looks WAY smaller in that one!!!! ;) (OMG I can't believe I'm posting this picture on the internet.... holy crap!!!)  
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